Food Diary D1

July 8, 2012

Foods	Calories	Carbs	Fat	Protein	Cholest	Sodium	Sugars	Fiber
Breakfast
Fresh - Raw Mango, Large, 83 g	78	17g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	12g	2g
AM Snacks
Organic Cherries - Bing, 25 Cherries	100	27g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Lunch
Earthbound Farm - Organic Spring Mix, 4.5 oz (85 g / 2 cups)	30	6g	0g	2g	0mg	143mg	2g	2g
Tomatoes - Green, raw, 0.5 cup	21	5g	0g	1g	0mg	12mg	4g	1g
Generic - Tomato, Large (3" Diameter) - Red, Ripe, Raw (Usda Data), 0.5 Large	17	4g	0g	1g	0mg	5mg	2g	1g
Generic - Fresh Basil Leaves, 0.5 Tbl. chopped	0	0g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Generic - Dried Oregano, 0.1 tsp	0	0g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Alessi - Organic White Balsamic Vinegar, 1.5 Tablespoon	30	8g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	6g	2g
Raddichio - Raw, 1 cup, shredded (40.0g)	9	2g	0g	1g	0mg	9mg	0g	0g
Fennel - Bulb, raw, 0.5 cup, sliced	13	3g	0g	1g	0mg	23mg	0g	1g
Alfalfa seeds - Sprouted, raw, 0.25 cup	2	0g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Whole Foods - Organic Raw Sunflower Seeds, 1/4 cup (28g)	190	0g	17g	7g	0mg	0mg	1g	3g
Nuts.Com - Raw Organic Hemp Seeds (Hulled), 0.83 oz (30g)	83	2g	6g	5g	0mg	0mg	0g	1g
Nuts Online - Orgainic Chia Seeds, 0.5 oz	69	6g	5g	2g	0mg	3mg	0g	6g
Generic - Sundried Tomatoes, Organic, 1 oz (28g)	72	16g	1g	4g	0mg	587mg	11g	3g
Generic - Mixed Mediterranean Olives, 15 grams (4 pieces)	25	1g	2g	1g	0mg	170mg	0g	1g
PM Snacks
Organic Cherries - Bing, 5 Cherries	20	5g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Trader Joe's Organic Popcorn With Olive Oil - Popcorn, 4 cups	260	36g	12g	6g	0mg	340mg	0g	6g
Tasty Kale - Dehydrated Kale, 1 oz	130	13g	6g	4g	0mg	270mg	3g	3g
Whole Foods - Nutritional Yeast, 12 g (2 heaping tbsp)	45	5g	0g	5g	0mg	4mg	2g	2g
Whole Foods - Organic Cashews Raw (Bulk), 1/4 cup (34g)	180	8g	14g	5g	0mg	0mg	2g	3g
International Collection - Virgin Flax Seed Oil, 0.5 tbsp	65	0g	7g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
Dinner
Grilled Salmon-(Corrected) - Salmon, 4 oz	135	0g	5g	29g	76mg	97mg	0g	0g
Quick Added Calories, 50 calories	50	0g	0g	0g	0mg	0mg	0g	0g
C & W - Yellow and Green Zucchini Squash, 1 cup	30	4g	0g	1g	0mg	7mg	3g	1g
TOTAL:	1,654	168g	75g	75g	76mg	1,670mg	48g	38g

Exercises	Calories	Minutes
Cardiovascular
Nike+ 1 mile jog	150	12
Precor	300	30
TOTALS:	450	42

Am I totally horrible?

I have a confession to make.  When I was on holiday, the last day my friend had to leave at 6am to take the train back to the City.  So, I decided I would spend the day at the pool at the hotel instead of going to the beach.  It was great!  I had the whole pool to myself, and since I had to check out anyway, I brought the cooler and the food to the pool with me.  I would dip into the pool, lay in the sun, and repeat.  I was there pretty much the whole day, when all of a sudden I started getting hungry.  I had some lean, hormone-free, cold cuts and some low-fat cheese, and was munching away on cherry tomatoes.  Then I saw the bag of salt & vinegar chips I had picked up for my friend.  Usually, I would never eat something like this, but hey it was vacation, and they were the baked and "healthier" kind from trader joes.  Well there I am with my hand in the bag, when these two women walk into the pool.  They were probably over 250-300lbs each.  They were completely covered in long t-shirt dresses, and came in and took some lounge chairs by the pool.  I just froze with my hand in the bag while I watched them.  They made themselves comfortable, and began to relax.  They still had their dresses on, and it became clear they had no intention of taking them off even though it was about 95'F.
At that point it was like I had x-ray vision, and I could see what was hidden under their oversized dresses.  I began to see myself back before I started to loosing the weight.  I became, so upset that I took the bag of chips and walked over to the garbage can and threw them away.  I tossed them along with all the things I had given up by being overweight.  Hiding away from life.  There I was no different from them, except I had made a decision, seeing them was like seeing what would happen if I didn't keep moving forward.  I'm sure nothing would have had happened if I ate the chips, but seeing those women made me realize how far I'd come because sometimes when we have a long ways to go it seems like it's never enough and there's always so much more to go.  The only thing I knew is that I didn't want to go in the opposite direction.
I hope this confession doesn't make me a horrible person, but I wanted to share this with others who are struggling because no matter if you've lost 1 lb, it's 1 lb less from where you were and 1 lb closer to your goal!  Anyone can change their lives in an instant.  I know I'm no longer the 220 lb woman, but sometimes, it takes seeing another one to realize how far I've come, and how far they can go as well!

Grocery Haul + Recipe

I finished my 10 days of Attack to get down to the 5 lbs I needed for the 40 lbs loss, but to be honest, I really missed "my" diet, and it was hard going back to mostly protein.  My intestines were all whacked from day 2 to the last day.  I was away, so it was nice getting back and going to the store for some real food, as my food choices while away were not the best, not totally unhealthy, but not the greatest either.

I just got back from a mini vacation for the 4rth of July!  It was nice not having to hide at the beach, and being able to wear all my fun summer clothes.  I had an amazing time, and it felt longer than it actually was, which is always great for mental health!  Being away from reality helped me to put a lot of things into perspective.  I had been dramatizing things, and somehow with the right scenery all the drama fell away.  I tried to stick primarily to the Dukan PV diet while away, but I did have a few drinks, and I couldn't leave without getting a small scoop of Key lime pie ice cream.  Other than that I think I was ok diet wise.




Now that I'm back home, I want to return back to my food pyramid (see earlier post).  I think I will have to revise it a bit because I have a better idea of what works for me, and what doesn't.  As you can see from the picture above, I'm back to primarily RAW again, but really it's what I crave in the summer.  I just made the best tomato salad, that I keep in the fridge and eat as is, or even top over salads.  I basically lived off this my last summer in Italy.  Here's the recipe...




TOMATO SALAD...

Green Tomatoes
Red Tomatoes
Fresh Basil
Chopped red Onion
Dried Oregano
White Balsamic Vinegar
Flax Seed Oil (or EVOO)
Salt

*Play with the amounts to your liking
ENJOY!!!